To most of my friends reading my blog,

I know you know I've changed, but I just haven't said anything on this blog because I just wanted to make sure I've thought things through. And you know I have.

The person I was before I went to Perth, the person I was when I was there, and the person I am now -
Those are 3 different people.

I do realise I know some of you might be disappointed with the choice I've made, but what can I say?
I can't live my life for anyone except me, can I?

Maybe to you I've "backslided", but to me I haven't because how can someone backslide when her faith has been redefined? And all the things that she did before out of religious obligation she no longer believes in because she doesn't see the point?

This, by the way, isn't the life I had imagined for myself. I thought I'd be like my older sister. Y'know, follow the straight path, get an education, go to work, marry in Church - y'know, all stable and does everything expected of her.

But yeah guess what, that really isn't me at all.

I don't deny what God has done for me because I know I wouldn't be who I am today.
And maybe this might seem a little ungrateful even, for taking the healing and then "walking away".

Well, it's all about perspective, isn't it?

Bottom line is, I just cannot agree with a lot of things the church preaches, and if God is the God I know, I don't think He expects me to agree with what the church says just because it says so.

I couldn't agree just because.

That would be nothing short of patronising.

To me, knowing God has nothing to do with being religious.

That said,

those whom I consider friends are still important to me.

I don't see how that could change just because I have a different take on things.

Well, it could, but it doesn't mean friends aren't important to me anymore.

So...

Let's move on, shall we?